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i really don’t think it’s “typical dragon age fandom nonsense” for people to be genuinely upset about the world state choices. combat, level design, art direction, gameplay gimmicks, those have all varied across each dragon age game. the one thing that’s remained constant are nods to our previous choices.
i wasn’t expecting my HoF to come riding in on a griffon, but i can’t find a monument dedicated to warden tabris somewhere around the anderfels? lucanis couldn’t have some lines about the time that one arainai boy was stirring up trouble in antiva city? you’re gonna tell me that making a mage the new divine wouldn’t have some impact on nevarra and antiva? on the anderfels, the supposed most devout militant andrastian nation in thedas? you’re saying nobody in the north is paying attention to who rules orlais or ferelden? come on.
#dragon age#yes i’ve seen john epler’s explanation on only wanting to carry forward choices that they could ‘really do something with.’#and i understand what he’s saying and i’m curious to see how those 3 choices they brought forward will impact the story!!#but i’m still disappointed. and i think telling people why they shouldn’t be disappointed is just gonna make them More disappointed.#also don’t really appreciate dev comments like ‘careful what you wish for with cameos. it just gives us an excuse to find new and horrific#ways to kill your faves teehee 🤭🤭’ like okay???????? what???#alistair came back twice & could be fine both times. loghain’s inquisition cameo was so meaningful because who the hell expected to see him#again? leliana can straight up die in origins and yall brought her back anyways. like what are we doing out here.#also when i think of ‘typical’ nonsense for this fandom it’s people doxxing each other over fictional character opinions. or what#fictional side your fictional inquistor took in the fictional mage-templar war. or just plain old racism.#NOT ‘damn it’s fucking upsetting that this excited replay i’ve been doing of the previous games and all the recommending i’ve been doing#for new fans to play the other games before veilguard has turned out to be pretty fucking pointless.’#might as well tell someone to watch a let’s play of trespasser and that’s it.#11/26 in a hater mood so i’m turning rbs back on lol. go forth & be petty
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a … a gift from the talented @kruinka 🥹 thank you so much!! ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ)
#彡 moevie!#彡 cherishing.#kruin …. !! you sent this a few days ago but i am still . reeling in . /pos because i cannot believe i am seeing moze ( and myself ?! ) in#your !!!! style !!! your !! adorable !!! and beautiful !! style !!! and there is a lot i have to say — i am in the chattiest mood despite my#sleepiness !! FIRST omg ): thank you ?! thank you !! THANK YOU !!! for being so kind to me and drawing out a sketch that i will treasure for#eternity really 😭 !! i will gaze at this whenever i wake up … gaze at it before i sleep …. gaze at it when im sad … when im happy ( to#amplify the happiness of course !! ) OOOOH KRUIN. kruin . words can absolutely NOT describe how much i love your style … i just cannot ?!#figure out how to put it in words ?? i can’t just say ‘i like how you do this’ ‘and this’ because it’s the literal entire thing that i love#aiwnendjdkke and ): before i get too deep into that — i must thank you another time kruin !! because i know you’ve been busy — and of#course you must be ?! im sure life becomes much more hectic during the holidays and new years like this — so i’m just so soft over the fact#that you spent time to do this for me and i :’) i really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart — i would like to say ‘you really didn’t#have to!!’ BECAUSE YOU DIDNT !!! YIU DIDNT NEED TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME — YOU DIDNT ): IM JUST SO SAPPY AND MUSHY THAT YOU CHOSE TO AND ):#and the background being pink . i love pink !!! i know exactly where this specific shade of pink will prosper ( give me a second .. when i#awake ) .. BUT OH )): thank you so much kruin … it means so much to me .. more than i could ever try to explain !!! BUT IS IT OKAY IF I TALK#ABOUT HOW YOU DREW MOZE BECAUSE . i’m dead on the floor -> x0x this is me because you made his cheeks SO squishy HIS SIGNATURE SQUISHABLE#LOOK . I WONDER HOW ARTISTS MAKE HIM LOOK SO SQUISHY ?? the squish technique ?? BECAUSE HE LOOKS SO CUTE SHJEJD ): KRUIN YOURE SUCH AN AWESO#ME ARTIST . SO TO BE ABLE TO SEE HIM IN YOUR STYLE ….. *thanks everyone for allowing me to have eyes* a wonderful day !! to have eyes !!! i#will actually risk disintegrating into evieparticles if i even so much as mention the blush on his cheeks so — instead . YOU GAVE HIM SUCH A#oh no . the look on his face T T kruin i don’t want to talk about it !!!!! but you — the look on his face !!!! must you draw him in such a#cute manner /pos i am starting to feel speechless trying to talk about how pretty he is in your style because . perhaps toopretty for me#to even make any type of comment ( instead — i sneak a glance and then turn away because if i stare too long …. IF I STARE TOO LONG .. *expl#explodes* ) kruin i think i will just cry seeing the level of detail you put into this ): like my hair ): i think i will just kneel in front#of you and cry and apologize over and over as i wipe my tears on my sleeve because my tears make it difficult to properly thank you /lh#the fact that there are sparkles T T the world is full of sparkles when mr shadow exists !!! a lovely . YOU KNOW WHAT . the sparkles are#there because KRUIN EXISTS . I LOVE YOU KRUIN. I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH ))): I DONT RVEN KNOW HOW TO DTART EXPRESSING MY GRATUTUDE#tldr - i am gobsmacked & staring at this for the next ( infinite amount of time ) thank you kruin !!! ): wishing you only the best .#aggressively wishing you only the best * aggressively turning to go O_O at anything that dares threaten a lovely day for you!!!!
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I really liked “I Saw The TV Glow” for a lot of reasons like the lighting and sound design and stuff
But I also really liked it because how similar I felt to it. Like you watch a show you love so much you want to Be In It and all you do is interact with That Show to the point where you start talking like it and you make everything you see like it because you don’t Know anything else
I really liked owens character because of how Stuck he is in his life. He says he doesn’t think about “that stuff” because it makes him feel gross so he doesnt. He takes a job at a place he doesn’t like and when it gets shut down he goes with the manager to the next place also doing a job he hates. When his parents die he lives in the same house he grew up in because he doesn’t want to leave. He had one friend and when she disappeared presumed dead he didn’t do anything but reminiscenced on his time with her and watching the show she helped him watch. You can also see how he starts taking care of himself less after his father died, in the last scenes of the movie he looks like he barely eats or drinks water, he doesn’t do anything but his job. “Years feel like seconds” because he isn’t doing anything of importance he lost everything that he looked forward too
He doesn’t talk above a normal speaking volume until he’s literally DYING and even after he apologizes still out of breath. He’s still dying then. No one responds to his apologies or responded to him when he was screaming
He gets a chance to leave and go with Maddie to The Pink Opaque and he gets scared, he gets a chance to leave with her when he was younger and he gets scared. He’s so unhappy with his life but he doesn’t want to change it because he doesn’t know what else to do
#yeah this movie totally didn’t resonate with me at all#haha#fuck#also he didn’t say anything or really try to wxplore not being a guy except that one time he wore a dress with Maddie. he didn’t even bring#it up with his parents but they made little comments that made him scared. so for the rest of his life he didn’t think about it he tried to#hide how he felt his entire life about everything because he didn’t Want to live his life. he was happy while watching The Pink Opaque so#everything else felt like he was waiting to get back to it#when he rewatched it years later it didn’t feel the same and that’s when he started falling apart. you could see his ribs when he was on th#ground in one of the last scenes his inhaler didn’t work he didn’t do anything to try and get help or get out of it#uhhhhh do I tag the movie#I think I will I liked writing this#I wanna talk about it more but idk How rn#i saw the tv glow#woo hoo!!#the feeling this movie gave is one that got me to start making dextrine and stuff. I don’t want to say too much and spoil it but it’s simil#similar ((:
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Mini rant below and in the tags, the only time I’ll talk about this and my personal take on it.
The way people talk about hypothetical male Anya on Twitter and the idea of how Mouthwashing would play out if the genders were swapped makes me remember how people still don’t take sexual assault and rape with male victims with the same gravity, especially when the perpetrator is female.
#not even gonna tag this cause I don’t want to start discourse in the tags but you can absolutely still explore the concepts of patriarchy#toxic masculinity misogyny and rape culture if the genders where swapped#like those concepts don’t disappear just because Anya is a boy now cause you have to think of all the ways it applies to male victims and#I just don’t understand why people keep getting angry when people facilitate different discussion the game opens you up to#like yes I get the frustration with not seeing the conversations you want but start them go find them why complain on other posts when#people are bringing attention to similar issues and the ways they are overlooked dismissed or blame the victim#I for one think we should have more basic clarifying conversations of SA rape cultures and how toxic masculinity and sexism create scenarios#like the Tulpar and enable men like Jimmy but I also can understand and enjoy the topic being expanded upon to include other cases on a#flipped scale like yes how male centered the fandom is is annoying considering the topic but seeing comments saying that SA isn’t as harmful#to men cause they can’t get pregnant is a whole can of worms you really need to unpack cause holy shit#like in this scenario if Jimmy is pregnant and can’t get rid of the baby Anya is the father yes Jimmy is pregnant but that’s because in this#swap she assaulted a man lied to either say it was consensual he forced himself on her or like canon panicked and semi admitted to forcing#him either way he is afraid to do anything because men do get blamed for defending themselves against women in these situations not to#mention the shaming that occurs because he is a man and should step up for the kids sake and likely be told he should be proud a girl wanted#him that much like yes you have to explain it more but bodily autonomy in this scenario is just as nuanced and I can’t believe I have to#defend something being male centered in a game where the rape of a woman is the catalyst just because people are saying SA for men#is not as damaging or degrading or harmful to autonomy as it is to a woman like how can you want conversations on rape culture and shut down#people bringing up other nuances in the conversation#like people are gonna jump around with it I know but if you only want to talk about one thing stay in that sphere like I just don’t get#going to another space especially one that isn’t even being weird or toxic and starting shit cause you don’t like it like the amount of#unnecessary and mean comments on normal art of think pieces I’ve seen on Twitter is crazy like it’s stupid callout shit for the sake of just#not liking something like I’m seeing so much screen shotting and vague posting like just at the bitch and fight about it like it’s still a#relatively small fandom ur just asking for in fighting on like the few things we shouldn’t have to worry about#as a victim my self and who has been in other situations and being afab I just can’t understand the vitriol toward this sort of discussion#mouthwashing#actually I will tag this cause you can explore the themes in mouthwashing still stop being freaks and just block bitches ong
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it’s heartbreaking to see what my briize mutuals are going through right now… i love riize and it upsets me that it’s come to this but i can’t imagine how it must feel like for those of you who’ve been with them from day one or who grew to love all of them unconditionally at another point of their journey. just wanted to send you all a warm virtual hug 🫂 i’m here for you 💗
#i don’t want to bring negativity even further into this i also feel like it’s not my place to speak because they’re not my ult group#and i don’t keep up with them regularly#but xdinary heroes is my ult group so i want to say this#i hope people start being more empathetic and respectful#in xdh’s live stream today which was about promoting their new album i saw comments about riize once or twice until i closed the tab#ofc i find the situation extremely upsetting but was this really the place?#it wasn’t anything too serious (unless there was more after i stopped keeping up with the comments)#but i know what one single comment can grow into#they’re not even in the same company#please be more mindful of what you say and where and to whom you say it
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Hello and welcome to Sharkji’s WangXianification of Plot™
MDZS has skyrocketed in popularity since the release of the english translation and The Untamed being accessible on multiple streaming platforms. It hunted you down and grabbed you by your ankles, dragging you down it’s deep dark hall. Now Wangxian has it’s death grip on you. That’s okay, me too. We are both in this cage together 🤝
But since we’re both trapped here for the same reason…
Let me offer this opportunity to forge a new deep dark hall in your brain. That’s right, more than one piece of media can have a death grip on you! So let me introduce to you a new piece of media, by handing it over to you in a Wangxian shaped package.
In other words, or in short. Let me feed you propaganda for another book by explaining it to you as if it was Wangxian. (Because this fandom desperately needs propaganda, we are parched! I want need more!)
YuWu - Remnants of Filth - by Meatbun doesn’t Eat Meat - The Wangxianification edition:
We’re going to start by separating the sects in MDZS into two kingdoms. Let’s put every sect that cultivates the righteous path into one kingdom. And let’s say that the Wens are their own kingdom that openly follows the demonic path. We’ll call them the Wen Kingdom. and for simplicity we will just call the other the Jianghu Kingdom.
Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji are two generals serving the army of the emperor in the Jianghu Kingdom. Lan Wangji, Hanguang-jun, born of noble blood, is revered but reserved. Wei Wuxian, the Yiling Lazou, born a slave, is charismatic but wild (shameless).
While extremely respected on the battlefield for his competence, a watchful eye is kept on that Yiling Lazou. You see, those born a slave are not usually granted the honor of serving the emperor in the army. But Wei Wuxian worked his way up to being the army general that commanded an entire troop of slave born and commoner men. This is the second time in the history of the Jianghu Kingdom that the emperor has allowed this…but it seems Wei Wuxian has proved himself, hasn’t he?
Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji work in tandem on the battlefield. And even though Wei Wuxian is always trying to tease and poke at Lan Wangji’s short temper, everyone knows that their brotherhood runs deep.
If only they knew how deep, aha. Because behind closed curtains these two really can’t keep their hands off each other. It started on Lan Wangji’s coming of age. When his Wei-shixiong of three years decided to congratulate his comrade with…a porn booklet. In true Hanguang-jun fashion, the poor man, storms out of the tent they were both in. Wei Wuxian cackles and leans back on Lan Wangji’s cot to flip through this booklet himself. It’s really such a shame, he paid such a pretty penny for it. And comrades such as themselves really should enjoy good things together. Wei Wuxian had no clue what he was in for when one of the pages he flips to features that of two men engaging in intercourse. Cutsleeves. and oh. there must be something wrong with me. It was then that Lan Wangji returned to the inside of tent, his ears red but his eyes dark.
And well, I’m sure you can imagine how this goes. and how it happens again. and again. and again and again and
Lan Wangji is so in love with Wei Wuxian. He wants nothing more than to be his home. He is elated at Wei Wuxian declaring his love for him during the throes of passion. But so devastated the next time Wei Wuxian teases him and “Hanguang-jun, how are you ever going to catch a wife with that stony expression of yours?”
Of course, Lan Wangji never lets his emotions show on his face. Well, not unless it’s a scowl. On the inside Lan Wangji watches the other, and his heart can’t help but catch fire from the blazing sun that is Wei Wuxian. He burns so bright. He burns and burns and
An incident on the battlefield. A plan gone awry. A neighboring kingdom and Wei Wuxian’s army enter a battle that was never supposed to be. 70 thousand Jianghu soldiers were slaughtered. The remaining 30 thousand, detained. Wei Wuxian was stripped of his military position and honors by the emperor. And Jiang Cheng. Wei Wuxian’s brother on the battle field. His second in command. The one who made an impulsive swipe to behead the envoy of this neighboring kingdom that they didn’t plan to battle with. Well he was set to be executed.
Wei Wuxian spent months in a drunken stupor. He was only ever seen in brothels these days.
And the biggest mistake Lan Wangji ever made was when Wei Wuxian turned to him, a ghost of his usual smile on his face and said, “Lan-shidi, time will heal this one’s wounds,” Lan Wangji believed him.
Three days before Jiang Cheng’s execution Lan Wangji and his army was sent away for a separate matter by the emperor. By the time Lan Wangji returned again, Wei Wuxian wasn’t sitting in that brothel’s window like he usually did these days.
In fact. The word was that while Lan Wangji was away, Wei Wuxian defected. Not only did he defect.. He joined the Wen Kingdom.
But Wei Wuxian. He. He wouldn’t. Lan Wangji didn’t believe it. Wei Wuxian was righteous. Wei Wuxian he. he saved people. he. he
Lan Wangji took the Vow of Heavenly Calamity in front of the emperor. He was so certain that Wei Wuxian wouldn’t defect that he vowed his allegiance to the emperor to convince him and prove that Wei Wuxian wouldn’t join the Wen Kingdom. He did this even though the vow itself took 10 years off his lifespan. Even though if he broke this vow he would be faced with a heavenly calamity and turn to dust in the turbulent winds.
The next time Lan Wangji saw Wei Wuxian he barely survived to relay the memory. There was a battle with the Wen Kingdom. They were battling the Wen kingdom who was using Wei Wuxian’s tactics and there he was. Lan Wangji, and all his faith in Wei Wuxian, was betrayed the moment Wei Wuxian dared to say he had no qualms killing Lan Wangji. And to prove it, he stabbed a demonic blade into his chest. Into his heart.
Lan Wangji barely survived. And while over time, the scar on his chest proved that the wound healed. Lan Wangji’s heart never did.
He couldn’t control the fragments left of his heart. He could never stop loving Wei Wuxian. The very one that betrayed his heart and their kingdom. He hated Wei Wuxian. He hated that he loved Wei Wuxian. He hated.
Five years later, while Lan Wangji was away with his army, he received word via letter that Wei Wuxian was returning to the Jianghu Kingdom. Lan Wangji couldn’t return home for two more years after that.
Lan Wangji and his accumulated hated over the past seven years, he wanted answers. He wanted a reason. He needed to know if Wei Wuxian ever had regrets. He wanted closure, damn it.
But the world was never so kind, was it?
Wei Wuxian had returned to their kingdom a broken man. His spiritual core was shattered and he had lost 2 of his 3 ethereal souls…leaving him with no mind or memories. By the time Lan Wangji could return home again, Wei Wuxian only had memories of the past two years where he worked with a trainer to learn how to speak and understand words again.
Wei Wuxian was detained in a brothel that was made up entirely of prisoners of war.
Even though Wei Wuxian could not provide the regret and closure that Lan Wangji needed. Even so, Lan Wangji approaches the brothel to seek out this old comrade of his. This old lover.
And that’s just where the story begins.
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eheheh. If you made it this far in my ramblings, thank you and I hope you enjoyed my propaganda. If you were at all convinced to read Yuwu please do let me know! And no I won’t take responsibility for any of the pain it may cause!
Also, I would like to say that even though I wrote all this, I have only been keeping up with the physical books. So please no spoilers :) My brain is just rotting while I wait for book 4 to come out at the end of the month.
Okay. Sharkji out! ✌️🥸
#this was entirely born of brain rot#read it or leave it#also don’t take it too seriously#the last thing I want is for my random ramblings to cause me some ‘um actually☝️’ comment#I really am just craving more people to talk about yuwu with#I can’t keep texting my friend who hasn’t read it ‘so i’m thinking about mo xi again and…’ at 8 in the morning#okay i’m going to go bury my head into the 206 works on ao3 now#(it’s 3am)#mdzs#wangxian#lan wangji#wei wuxian#mxtx#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#the untamed#yuwu#ximang#mo xi#gu mang#remnants of filth#meatbun doesn't eat meat#danmei#sharkji goofy goober hour
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gooood morning and happy friday the 13th teehee !!! also today is my blogs 1st anniversary o: how fun is that ! i hope you all have a good day and an even better start to your weekend ����
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#thank you for all the kindness and support yesterday#it was much needed !!#you brought some sunshine to my very rainy day ( ྀི o̴̶̷᷄ o̴̶̷̥᷅ )#luckily i don’t have to be at the office until tuesday so no more weird comments from my boss yippeee !#i really wanted to do an event for my anniversary but life is just … well its not in the cards right now !#i will be planning something else down the road once things settle ^_^#will be traveling today so i’ll be in and out hehe fingers crossed i can get wifi on the plane#sending out much love !!!!#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.
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Your art is FANTASTIC and the random observations/polls/interjections you make have really helped to fuel the DA fandom in positive ways! Which it definitely needed after Veilguard's release, lmao. It's always a pleasure to see you on my dashboard!
That's very kind of you to say oh my gosh thank you so much. I'm just bumbling around and every once in a while I say something people think is worth sharing, and I like sharing what other folks feel/make too! I'm glad I'm a not too much of an annoyance xx
I think my favorite thing about having this blog is the notes I see on other peoples posts I rb, it’s nice seeing all sweet things get things sent an artist way or conversations/theories carried on in a rb chain
It’s a big ol show n tell and it’s a wonderful reprieve from my normal day to be able to see other folks stuff too ✨
#I have a bunch of asks turned peanut gallery thoughts i haven't answered sorry guys i've been a workin...whatever i am#and ask asks too... oh no ahhh#asks for bee#thoughts from the peanut gallery#It's a very beautiful sandwich I just wish it had more meat instead of lettuce if that makes any sense?#and there's nothing wrong with being disappointed with what shipped#i dont think you should put something you love so high up on a pedistool that the flaws can't be seen anymore...#but going out of your way to be an ass to someone isn't my gig so i'm happy folks that follow this blog feel that same way#I want this to be a little safe space that's not just entirely one point of view#and I'm really lucky that I have so many people following this blog that are kind to each other in the notes when i rb something that isn't#-a shared feeling with everyone#its really cool that for the most part folks are respectful to one another in my tags/comments#like i wouldn't been able to ask for the Anders vibe check this time a year ago without folks being mean to eachother#oooo i hope i don't jinx it#ah im rambling again!#thank you for the kind words!!!#this blog has grown so much since MELE and Veilguard#its sweet xx#(I’m of course not without fault and had my share of asshole moments but I’m trying not to let my anger be the strongest part of me)#I know I can be snippy but if I was truly irked by someone I would just block them and move on#and I hope that’s what folks to do with me too#i’m sorry I don’t respond to your asks super fast all the time but my inbox is always open for pretty much whatever#…just not any more dreams about varrics feet please?#I’m still rambling ahhhh!!!#you can really tell I’m snuggled up and about to fall asleep huh whoopsy!#thank you for the chill tumblr space everyone! That’s all I was trying to say!!
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Genuine question, where are yall getting the “robins eye dots + the stuff behind her are Xipe colors” from?
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Because like I don’t see it, like at all. Xipe has like every color under the sun behind them and the shades aren’t similar to Robin’s at all, they aren’t in the same order and there’s like three million other colors mixed in there. I do think the “that rainbow behind her represents moon lesbians” is a little silly because even if it looks like the flag I doubt hoyo’s devs know what those are (I learned about them today 😭).
However, the other colors on the traffic lights and her cheeks straight up look like they are meant to look like a lesbian flag or at least a pastel version of one, and for the life of me I can’t see where people are coming from when they say it’s related to Xipe. I guess her eyes cover the other colors, but purple and yellow are still missing if she truly wanted to represent them on her face alone
Idk man, let me know your thoughts
#honkai star rail#hsr#penacony#robin hsr#robin#ik ��erm colors” doesn’t really count as coding but if you combine it with everything else#It really does seem that they want Robin to be a lesbian or at least sapphic#However she did make a lot of flirty comments towards Boothill in the trailer#So ?!??#Might just be a Ruan Mei situation though#Bc apparently she made some flirty comments towards ratio in the 1.6 livestream#That doesn’t at all reflect her actual personality + ratiomei is ass#I mean the livestreams aren’t canon anyways#I don’t really think what Robin said was anything more than hoyo talking through her tbh#“Look at this cool cowboy#Maybe it’s a conflict of interest#Livestreams aren’t canon anyways and unlike demos they contain the least canonical version of a character#Its where the character Va really gets their time to shine#Honestly people need to realize that livestreams and demos and content like the concerts aren’t canon#As much as I love it#the Aventio interactions in avens demo didn’t literally happen even if they are accurate#Representations of the characters#and made to be in character as if it did happen#So canon but didn’t literally happen#It’s weird
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22 for fic writer asks 🖤
22. do you ever worry about public reaction to what you're writing? how do you get past that?
ooh honestly, i don't think so? i think i'm lucky in that for the last 3-4 years, the people i've managed to attract as an audience to my writing are people who have mostly similar tastes to me, and who enjoy similar types of characterizations and themes and stories. so i feel pretty confident about the stuff i write (aside from like... the typical writer spiraling during the process when i think everything is bad LOL) and while i'm writing it i don't think i ever get the feeling that it's going to bomb or turn people off or that people will generally dislike it. or rather than not getting the feeling, i don't really think about it all. it doesn't occur to me that ppl might not like it bc i don't care bc i like it😆 i haven't written too much stuff that's "out there" or controversial in some way in a few years now (rly want to though), but even when i did, i got great reactions from likeminded people, so i haven't ever really been scared out of it 🙏 it's my own procrastination and being daunted by my own ideas that's stopping me
if we're talking "reaction" in general like comments/engagement, i'm kind of used to writing for like, myself and my corner of 3-5 freaks, so i don't expect many reactions in the first place 😆 so any comment i get is always a joy and a surprise! these days i don't find it too demotivating to think only a few people are gonna read what i write bc i'm pretty focused on just wanting my ideas to exist in my writing style and if ppl happen to like it that's an extra perk. and also the few people who are gonna read it are gonna go apeshit about it so that's really all i need and i'm always grateful for it kjsdhgjksd
so overall i think i'm lucky that i have that kinda self assurance and comfort bc like, fearing how people will react to your art is one of the fastest paths to suppressing yourself and your creative instincts and it sucks a lot. but there are a lot of judgmental and closeminded people out there who can't accept that people have different tastes than them and it can be hard not to worry about people like that seeing your work and having something to say about it. but interacting with like minded people and trying to form a community with the same values goes a long way in finding people who will support you unconditionally and enthusiastically, and that seems to be the best way to stop caring what other people might think about your art!! "me and my 2 freak mutuals" will save you, trust me
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#thank you for sending an ask!!#ask games#like don’t get me wrong i want comments more than anything#and not getting them is a bummer#but i feel like i do move on from it pretty quickly when it happens and i wouldn’t say it discourages me#it’s more like#i thought this thing i wrote was rly good and i still think it’s rly good but i still wish for praise LOL#and also tbh i think if you have even ONE person#who just REALLY gets what you’re trying to accomplish and feels that you’ve accomplished it#nothing else could compare
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you know what. i went to my high school reunion in an outfit i would never have worn in high school and i talked to people i thought i’d never talk to and i had such a great time
#am i going to be hungover? yes. was it worth it? YES#there is a guy i went out with for maybe two weeks non consecutively and i hoped he’d be there so we could catch up#because i remembered him as one of the really good memories from high school#and he was. and he’s still just as fucking cool and kind and generous as ever#and i even caught up with this bitch i fucking HATED#and i saw another girl who made a comment once i’ve never forgotten that made me feel so insignificant#i kept my head and chatted with her for a minute and excused myself when it got to be too much#i was like if i stand here one more minute i’m going to tell you how much that comment hurt me and i don’t want to!#so i didn’t! i’m really proud that i kept that to myself#i did shots with people i didn’t know five years ago#it was great. it was really really cool#i’m so glad i went
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a tiny little zine inspired by @koddlet’s how-to! (i love your zines, they’re so fun and inspiring!) i first just folded it out of a sticky note for fun and put it in my pocket thinking “i’ll fill this in later when i have an idea” and then i looked outside and it was so. fucken dark. and here we are :) i really loved treating it as an exercise in “draw whatever comes to mind, let it be as shitty as possible, just try something” — drawing isn’t something i think of as my strong suit but little doodles sure are fun!
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#looking at this again as i add the IDs i think i made the darkness angled the wrong way lol#whatever#this was so fun and freeing!!!#if it was larger i probably would have added another scene and some more commentary to explain the sunset scene—#i get really picturesque sunsets where i live and it’s tempting to take them for granted but i don’t want to#so whenever someone comments on it i make a point of fully getting up and looking and just Appreciating it for a minute#every time#even when i’m kind of annoyed that it’s already getting dark when i need the daylight to motivate me to Do Stuff lmao#(how to make this story more stressful: imagine the book on page 3 is a required reading book and i have to read 8 chapters by the next day#but overall it’s just a snippet of my winter nighttime mood :)#penguin’s ponderings#i hope that’s my tag for og posts. i forget tbh
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bucket!!!! Hiiii!!!!
you seem to like movies a lot right?
what your favorite movie and or show
hi raith :]]
hmm i don’t know. i watched the wild robot recently and i really enjoyed that, and a series of unfortunate events is great
oh i watched this movie a while back called joyride and that was really good
a lot of my favorites are kind of idk juvenile? i don’t watch a lot of new movies and most of my favorites are really just for the nostalgia like lilo and stitch or megamind
#the void talks back#i’m really not that much of a movie savant#it’s just something i’m kinda interested in#when i was younger i wanted to be an author and that’s sort of moved more towards director#so as i get more into that i notice more and more about the movies i’m watching#like i was rewatching a show from my childhood and noticed the camera angles they were using#or i was watching the hobbit with my brother and commenting on different visual techniques they’ve used for the story telling#i’m just a yapper and movies are something i’m interested in#i sort of went on a rant there#i don’t know if i even really answered your question
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does anyone else feel like the fandom treatment of jimmy (i.e. censoring his name, the ‘sorry you had to draw him’ jokes) is almost… stripping him of accountability a little?
like, he’s not some inherently evil fantasy creature that just can’t help but be horrible because that’s his nature. he’s a human person, and a human person who chose to do vile things. he’s CHOSE to abuse and rape anya, he CHOSE to crash the ship, he CHOSE to abuse curly, he CHOSE to drug and kill swansea, he CHOSE to manipulate daisuke into practically killing himself. these are all things he actively chooses to do and he genuinely thinks he is right in doing them. he chooses not to feel guilty.
the whole point is that he’s a person just like anyone else. a human being can choose to be this vile and disgusting. trying to erase his role in the story even if it’s just for a joke takes away from this imo
#i fully understand people not wanting to discuss him if he makes them uncomfortable#as a woman who has been in uncomfortable situations with men i really do understand it#but jimmy’s role in the story is so integral that you can’t really get away with not acknowledging him#and as a further comment: i’ve seen far more ‘j*mmy’ jokes than i’ve seen love for anya#it feels like people value hating a rapist more than loving their victims#and don’t get me wrong you SHOULD hate rapists#but the lack of acknowledgment of anya at ALL outside of what jimmy did to her is beyond irritating#she deserves better#anyways#mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing
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“i’m all alone, but i’m as happy as can be!”
#aka top 10 things i wish i could drill into my coworkers brains grrrrrrrrrrrrrrnrhrhbgbgbfbfbfnf#‘you should get a bf’ ‘when are you gonna get married and have kids?’ how about n e v e r#i just want to sleep when i’m not on the clock mans i don’t want to waste my precious sleep time on others#i mean. i don’t even leave the house on my days off. not to go shopping or anything bc sleep is more important~~~#and stuff can be bought online anyways s o o o o o#g o d speaking of online purchases thoughhh this massage seat i bought online came in yesterday and it works amazingly well~~~~~#used it for half an hour last night and i was relaxed enough to sleep for 11-12 hours straight#wish i had space for an actual massage chair though but this will have to do…#it’s been my dream to own a massage chair for the longest time…… but ig this massage seat is good enough……#i can just slap it onto my desk chair and b a m ✨instant paradise✨#speaking of instant though… one of my coworkers was commenting on my love for instant noodles the other day#‘you’ll ✨d i e✨ faster if you eat a lot of cup noodles yk?’ he said#so ✨o f c✨ my mouth chose to work faster than my brain when i replied with ‘i’m fine with that bc i won’t have to work then’#he and another coworker laughed :( sadded#b u t i finally had my cup noodles that i ‘customised’ at the cup noodle museum today and it was good~~~~~~~ i have good taste (self praise)#the best part was the lack of spring onions!!!! bc screw spring onions really who decided that they should be included with most cup noodles#or just noodles in general? the texture sucks and they don’t even taste good man. why would you even add spring onions?#it’s number 2 in my list of most hated food toppings. it loses only to ikan bilis bc s c r e w ikan bilis or dried anchovies or whatever#they’re known as >:( i hateeeeee how takeout places will just assume that you want ikan bilis and lop on a huuuuugeeeee serving of them#atop your food as you desperately and futilely b e g them to stop#and when you try to pick them out they just!!!! keep turning up everywhere instead?????#like hello???? how did you manage to get to the bottom of the bowl???? you were only added as a topping!!!!!!!#also. their eyes are really creepy. and the heads get detached from the bodies all the time and just. seeing the eyes ruins my appetite.#wait this was supposed to be about my coworkers and their pushiness in a matter that doesn’t concern them how did we get so far off-topic—#chizuutan chizpost
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THINKING ABOUT.
Universe contamination. WAIT before anybody says Oh doc’s gone off the deep end This is an oc project.
Kind of started as an explanation for why when my friends and I did crossovers it went off the rails? Also because of how my writing changed over time, ha. (of course you know you can’t have an adventure story without something going wrong but still.) Whenever somebody visits Jer, peoples around them are more… aggressive? Heightened emotions? (shoutout to Finch)
And on the other hand when Jer visits other people they’re able to calm down any situations very well, and just bring positive vibes! But it’s very exhausting for Some Reason.
I’m not sure how jer got the idea, probably a slow realization/looking back or maybe confirmation bias and none of it is real! Haha!
Contamination is a Major worry Jer has! They’re paranoid that outsiders staying too long and butterfly-effecting things/causing trouble could permanently ruin the timeline. (I think that’s what triggered him into uh shutting down his portal the first time) (and hearing about what JJ did was very worrying also-)
Lost my train of thought so I’m talking about another related idea. You know how in movies when a character is worried that Something TM is nearby but the other characters tell them not to worry because it’s not real? Irl we don’t have to worry and you can reassure yourself because Science, but in the movie they’re right to worry because the creature can be seen and really does exist. Jer knows the ‘creature’ exists, therefore that Threat is always there and nothing others say will fully reassure him, and he’s right to think that. Uh my thoughts. Losing my train of thought. [insert that meme of me by a conspiracy board]
(Orrrrr contamination isn’t actually because of universe magic but becauseeee of the way the worlds are slightly different and the way visitors act and talk are recieved differently? And when people are getting to know each other, first impressions do a lot? And what JJ did was an isolated incident that had a lot of warning signs beforehand? So he doesn’t have to worry? But too late, the idea’s in his head now.)
… uh oh, Jer’s trying to run an experiment by giving his friends ‘good luck charms’ and seeing if objects from their world could affect another’s if kept for a long time. Jer no!! Chill out!!
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On a fun note though, I’m giving jer night vision. wahoooo :D I might make a cool drawing for it laterrr
And thinking on Rev- I think yeah, folks in Jer’s world think he’s some kind of creature or… maybe a film star? That’d explain why he’s most often at the studio and acting dramatic HAHA- but in all seriousness I think movies there would lean on the more action filled/ more violent side (and on the contamination thing- once people got to know Rev they mellowed out so. Jer, calm down. Jer of course people are going to act oddly your various friends from ‘out of town’ have fangs, claws, unusual eyes, and demon horns) (shoutout to Caedem)
(but. But. Potentially if some dangerous ideas were introduced to Jer’s city you can’t just… take them back- like Pandora’s box. If Something made people start acting more selfish and cruel it Could contaminate the supernatural good fortune of the city. Haha what who said that? I love ideas that could go either way, that’s my jam. Who knows. (But I wouldn’t do that to them because Id have to write something complicated And it would be very sad. But the worry is real to Jer.)
Related- thinking onnnn Jer’s rat! Randy’s doing a very good job keeping them calm- annnnd explaining out loud what you’re thinking (even to a pet!) can help you realize how over-worried you are. They’re having a Mental Health Moment but are holding it together on the outside so [thumbs up]
#unrelated but. over new years I was chilling with some other people and… I dunno somebody commented on how weird my voice is.#I guess it never sunk in tIll recently. AND I don’t talk a lot to begin with so uh it doesn’t often show.#feckinggg if I wasn’t scared of doctors I’d check for. something. hrrghfdsvfbfn… ok back to oc thoughts#time to project it onto jer because I can#I kinda know what’s up though I’m probably in denial though. haha.#aH yeah some of the ocs idea here is from how twitchy I was about my characters getting hurt LMAO I was such a control freak. sorry friends#HA so forgetful it feels like I’m analyzing and making headcanons for somebody else’s story. oh boy.#unrelated I really need to think about my characters pronouns more. maybe it’s because of how similar jer and I am that I’ve given him some#to me? I just need to work through it I think [slaps desk]#jer is also vaguely worried that he should be doing more to help the other worlds- he has a great affinity for magic n whatnot but like.#it’ll probably be fine they can handle themselves yeah? but the thought is always there#no I’m not giving jer my horrible paranoia (JUSTIFIED PARANOIA UNFORTUNATELY) and moral ocd what do you mean. (/joke)#unrelated I really want to talk about the horrible misunderstanding between jer and pavel because of Universe Differences but I’ll do that#when I’m more awake
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